Happy Mother's Day!!!

I'm typing this one day earlier because I won't be online tomorrow (Mother's day)

This is a poem dedicated to mothers plucked from a book called Mama where are you? by clove n clive. (www.clovenclive.com)

When I was 3,
I wanted you to hug me,
I felt safe, secure and loved in your embrace.

When I was 13,
You wanted to hug me,
I pushed you away
Saying you have a bad smell,
And I was too old to be hugged.

When I was 6,
I held your hand,
You led me to the park and showed me the way.

When I was 16,
I felt irritated when you wanted to hold my hand,
I was old enough to know my way,
I wanted to walk the path myself,
I didn't need your advice anymore.

When I was 10,
I was so proud of the clothes you sewed for me,
I was the beautiful princess with the glittering clothes,
I had a mother who can sew and my peers do not.

When I was 30,
The clothes you sewed for me were too old-fashioned,
I felt embarrassed if my friends knew I wore the clothes you sewed,
I ordered you not to sew clothes for me anymore,
I will get the branded ones from the boutique.

When I was 35,
I came to a realisation,
What you do as a mother has not changed,
How come my reactions have changed?

When I was young,
Your words were wise,
I saw you as a great being,
Protecting me, nurturing me, caring for me
Whatever you did, you did for me,
I was your precious daughter.

When I grew old,
I became arrogant,
I am educated; I know more than you.
I am more powerful now,
I don't need you anymore.
I take care of myself,
I can give myself better advice than you.

I felt so important,
I wanted to control my own life,
I didn't want you to stand in my way,
I pushed you aside,
I didn't see tears rolling down your cheek.

I forgot the love that you poured on me when I was young,
I forgot the sleepless nights you had when I was sick,
I forgot the worries you carried when I was sitting for my exam,
I forgot that you kept the best food for me,
I forgot that you breastfed me when I was an infant,
I forgot that you washed my clothes,
I forgot that you cleaned my shoes,
I forgot that you cooked for me,
I forgot your care,
I forgot your protection,
And,
I forgot that you cried for me when I was down.

Dear Mama,
I'm sorry that I have forgotten many things that you've done for me,
I'm sorry that I was not there when you needed me most,
I'm sorry that I closed my ears when you needed someone to talk to,
I'm sorry for the many things
I have not done.

Dear Mama,
Please forgive me,
Forgive your daughter
who is so insensitive to your needs,
Forgive your daughter who only concentrates on her own life,
Forgive your daughter who is so reluctant
to spare time for you,
And,
Forgive your daughter who only realises
her shortcomings now.

Dear Mama,
I love you, ever since I was young,
I love you for all the things that you have done,
I love you for your care,
And,
On top of all the reasons to love you,
I love you for no reason.

You are my Mama.

I don't care if you think bad about this poem or laugh at it or even said it was boring. (Yes, you too blog critic. :D)


Happy Mother's Day :)

(* Note: Haha this is the second post i posted in one day XD)